I LOVE my job. I get to help shape America's future and touch the lives of many children. I make kids laugh while learning, I help sharpen their reading skills, and I teach them how to problem solve in math, as well as in life. I work SO hard at my job and it has never been a forty hour a week kind of job. I constantly take grading home after work and spend hours on the weekends working on report card comments and planning. I often go in early and stay late. I do this all, despite the lack of a noticeable raise or full support from the parents.
But sometimes it's hard not to get frustrated with the pay! Once I get my graduate degree in two years, I'll see the biggest pay raise possible in the next several years - before taxes it'll be around $5,000 to $6,000 more a year. I know that that's still better than some get and I'm not looking for a pity vote here, but I just want to scream sometimes!
It boggles my mind that I have been in this job for five years and I currently only make $3,000 more a year than I did my first year of teaching!! And that's BEFORE taxes. It makes it really hard to hear friends and family talk about raises of $8,000 or $10,000 raises or bonuses that are even more than that.
I do get an income from Thirty-One, but it's not steady and I can't depend on it. With my current bills, the random car bills that I've had lately (Tires = $900 ugh!), and graduate school, I'm seriously struggling. Not to mention the wedding costs!
I feel like I have a personality disorder when it comes to my finances. Some days I think to myself, "Hey, it's cool. I'm not like the average American struggling with tens of thousands in debt, and I pay all of my bills on time. So it's ok." But then other days I feel like a total failure when I think of the fact that I literally don't have a savings and I have to keep using my credit card to pay for wedding stuff. I hate having a balance at all on my credit cards, and I know it's not the end of the world, and you only get married once, blah blah...BUT it still bothers me.
So I'm trying my hardest to get more Thirty-One parties, but I don't want to be too pushy about it or too sales-y by asking friends and family to host. I can't force people to have parties!
I still babysit once a week, but that's only $40 at a time. So it doesn't go very far at all. Lately, it hasn't been consistent either. I just broke down and applied for some tutoring jobs online. For the past three years my school system gave me a tutoring job twice a week that helped me, but the budget wasn't there for it this year. So I'm hoping I can find some other ones on my own. We shall see.
Not to get too religious here, but I know things happen for a reason and that I'm being looked after. I know that I have people around me who care and who are willing to help when needed (and who already have - I know I have the best friends and family!). I pray and thank God multiple times a day for the blessings I have.
But sometimes I just want to get paid more for what I already do and love, instead of trying to find other odd jobs to pick up the pieces!
It's been a while - I have been so busy with grad. work and school! But somehow I have still managed to get some wedding stuff done! Recently accomplished:
I ordered invitations, RSVP cards, envelopes, and matching address labels from Vistaprint - With the two groupons I had, I saved $112! Woohoo!
I chose and ordered something for my hair (can't be specific - Dan doesn't want to know anything about what I'll look like)
Chose bridal jewelry and got them! My sister, brother, and brother's girlfriend got my necklace and earrings for me as my birthday gift! YAY!
Finished the website!
Just about finished all of the separate contact lists - one for the wedding with separate lines for each person, one for households, and one for the shower. I still need to make a bachelorette one soon.
Need to do soon-ish:
Figure out if/how we're doing a rehearsal dinner
Go through ceremony options with Dan and our pastor
Go shopping soon with my sister/mom to find what they're wearing for the wedding
Book the honeymoon flight - I have it picked out! We just have to sit down and actually do it